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He picked me up
Like a little china doll that could never be broken
Once my knight in shining armor, I ran to you
in hopes your strong, caloused hands would protect me.
Your thick, wavy, black hair
that would eventually resemble the birdnest on top of mine
would curl between my fingers as a child in play
The day I sat on your lap
would be the last day remembering the look
of happiness you gave me, from chin up.

As the years went by, these hands grew
far apart from the promises you once gave me
Each season passed by without your voice
only to remind myself, I am no longer your china doll
And the black hair thoroughly mimicking yours
Is forced into something else
straight and narrow
It doesn't curl like yours did, that day you smiled
As if you would be there, in your rocking chair
To comfort and protect me forever

in flight we've supplied our own dreams
catered to the endless of what we've wished to be
but ive seen you look through windows that are telling you your fine
when all youve seemed to ask for is the company with wine
when your own road has looked endless, the wrinkles in your eyes
the stories you now tell, accompanied with lies
you're not lost,
you're just finding your own way home

In the force of a smile, you crackle with ease
your lover, your friendships, your parents, you please
Now you search for the pain that is manifesting close
In the hopes of a story you can idenfity with the most
you have turned and stumbled and crawled your way out
you have fear and problems and a future you doubt
but I urge you
you're not lost
you're just finding your own way home.

 

put me back in to the ground
i was lost and didnt want to be found
i want to sit in the earth till im decomposed with life
while the worms eat away we all look around
for a way to dig ourselves up and explain our excuses
written back on the tombs with the how to do uses
i want dirt and shit and sun and truth
i want love and life and sound and youth
through the ground i can sit and hear the vibrations
carefully they walk around with their heads cut off

put me back into my cage
I am not angered, I am not raged
I want to conform to the death while I'm still here
with what difference is like, we all have to fear.
For how exhausting it is to be unique these days
I'd rather sit in silence, with my invisible cage
How we never sit back and enjoy the new sun
Since I'm lost in the ground, I hear everyone run
Run in the line that leads us to the end
Where we all make "meaning" as we try to pretend.

That this ground is not earth, it is simply our floor
When we got rain, all we did was ask for more
When we saw there were trees, we saw there was ceilings
When we found education, we explained all our feelings
Now I'm tired and I told you that I'm done for this day
when we get back to business, you'll tell me its okay
I'll tell you that this sun may shine but it's only tanning the blonde
sail past the horizon and you'll find the star we once wished on
 

this is all glowing slowly
as the cup makes a sound
on the concrete step where i sit down 
and i smoke wondering what i'm still doing here

and the background static is going so fast
where all the best music hits every last breath
see i dont know these people but you stand out so clear

we hit the notes, of every song i use to sing
but now your eyes, give them this different meaning

the lights flicker on as i realize this scene
was all put in effort in impressing me
even out of your room i want them to keep staying on

the butterflies won't last but ill catch them in jars
tie them in knots so they can't stray too far
and the lights and the wings and the love and the wine
ive tried way too hard for them all to be mine

now the bottles are empty and the people are gone
we want to make this last and this feelings not wrong
that when everythings silent the music still playing in my head
i take my last drag and just this once i say
"i'm staying over, if that's okay
the lights and the wings and the love and wine go to bed

Those weren't tears
i faked them to pretend i was living
the fear was inviting
for a love that wasn't true

You can say
that my spoken words are bullshit
but without speaking a word
I can hit inside of you

no you're right
i only dream things in black and white
pickings parts to start a fight
laying down the fingertips to bind

but they're wrong
and now ill start to write the songs
imagine them to go along
to the girl someday that you'll never find

 the woods chipping onto the floor
and im hiding underneath the cracks
i'd paint until it's finished
but i don't think you're ever coming back
this house is still standing in shreds
and i am still waiting inside
our fights can shatter all of these walls
in hopes of what we are to find
let us build back these walls that
we've somehow torn down
to incorparete new ones
 that may come around
and we'll drill till the wood is still bare to the bone
so that i can see a house, that was never alone.

i can hear laughing from a distance
within the silent walls i'll listen
from a petty
more than envy
kind of charm you once wore with me
i will find
another friend, see
but it's more than that, it's simply
a mistake you made within a time frame
so short that you insisted

and if a slip can make you fall
i'm sure, i can't help you at all
if it's my smile
that youve wanted
all the help
that you have gotten
i have listened,
you have thought it.
then my love is far too small

i'd run away from all the pictures
and turn off my crazied mind
but i'd have to distance myself from goals
i'm still hoping to try to find
let me take this side road and maybe i'll reach
a song from a different kind

you can take these words into whatever context
and forever peddle silently
but i'm not going to waste my time
in searching what you're trying to be
as for all of the days I have spent wondering
what I'm going to do for ME

now let's remember the days in the timeless light
and the darkened days when we use to sit
ignore the words now and forever we'll smile
someday, looking upon it
As I'm sorry to write in a cloud of hate
it's me that will remember this.

hello, nice weather, it's nice to meet you
ive never seen the sun shine so bright you could see through
let's go take a drive and we can see the city
as long as you promise you will understand me

i noticed one time that your smile protects me
and your hugs stop the world when it spins so greatly
i'd stop all these rhymes but my words have stumbled
to form in a verse neatly instead of fumbled

sweet one we have seen how the ground connects the trees
and we don't have to settle for the birds or the bees
we can talk about anything, nervously, perfectly
like as if we were silent we would never be free

i sleep fine at night as you misrepresent
the thin line between mistakes and a current event
contribute to a city that has fallen apart
uncover your truth so we know who you are

just keep on that mask that is telling you "no"
it'll help out your image from your friends that don't know
this champagne of idiots weve all fallen for
wins the hearts of the ones that arent still letting go
give some time to others as i try to pretend
these lies are your loves, your family, your friends.

i can hold my temperament as words unspoken
glue together what they have broken
to cross an invisible divide
tell me what it is we can collide
to mix together what we both hide

 you can walk all over me
but i will stand and wait
until you forgive yourself
for the mistakes that you'll make

i can hold on to your smile
and that past that marked our mile
to pull in the older times
and forget that you arent mine

it's what i feel inside
and until you dissapear
i can loose and find
and ill be standing
right here.